What is happening

I'm afraid to say it (post) since every time I have told someone it happens.

When I first arrived at Tijuana I had seen 3 things (ghost or whatever) 1 blue, 1 red and 1 green all using some weird bird mask. Ever since that time when i see them I "blackout" or get a huge brain reset(fart?) I forget everything that was happening and have even asked what day it is, worst part is something that have happened to me with friends or family are said to have happen after or before the event actually happened.

Stupid example, according to me 5 days before my birthday (17) I found a $50 on the street and purchased a book called “Encrucijadas”, I finished it and actually wrote a report on it for school, 1 day after my birthday POOF brain fart turns out that did not happened and for some reason people call me by a different handle (instead of Grave the call me lukazaz, yeah it’s my handle but I don’t use is since after 6 grade! And now it turns out that it’s the other way around) ok so whatever, some things happen and I need to go downtown for a new copy of “Encrucijadas” since I can’t find the book in my house on the way there I find an “other” $50 a couple of blocks were I had found the first (weird but Ok this is a place where rich tourist come and go every day at all times).

I go to the shop ask for the shop keep for the same book as last time (since he can just look up the bin were it was) turns out I haven’t been to the store in months… ok weird maybe the cute girl forgot or something, I just go ok well I need a copy of blah blah blah… there’s 2 copies (weird I didn’t think they would restock 1 book at a time) sure enough I buy it go home and read it again… nothing changed so far.

I go to school next day a bit strange for me to hear a handle I hadn’t used but o well, turns out at 9 period we get a text assignment, read “Encrucijadas” and make a report for next week.

Funny I already have that book AND did a report on it… for this same class… I ask the teacher why that books since it’s kind of a lone print not easily found (P2P was the go to thing torrents were to slow) teacher (to my shock) starts questioning my reasoning saying I should have even heard of it, I told her I know the author (nor personally his books at least) and that I have a copy of the 2 that were available at Renatos books store(great finds for cheap prices!!) she calls me out and the questions rain down… every single one correct, while she is impressed I finally notice what happened the last X days have changed I recall them some way but they are now completely different, thing I would now if things happened in the “inverse” situation are clear to me and some few but not the rest.

LOTTERY YOU IDIOT! Lottery  HA! I wished since that could make things easy.

Turns out my parents are “polar opposites”, financially I’m the same (fucked) love life is gone with the wind, girlfriend is now only friend (even do I know some really personal things she still thinks I stalk her and that its stupid we could go out) crush is now more of a secret lover (according to her) instead of my almost sister, oh and my weird writings (journal kind of thing and writing excuse) gone…

I saw them 2 nights ago, they were close to my girls and wife.

I’m afraid of what will happened on Saturday, maybe I become rich? Maybe I commit suicide? Maybe the girls of my dreams changes to some other person?

I used to clear my mind doing stuff (writing, playing VG, trying to blow stuff up you know manly stuff) but seeing them close to my girls makes me sick and tired maybe it’s time for me to try and stop them?

I can seem them outside the porch door… I don’t need luck I need my sanity and to know that if I am dreaming this can stop and the things I know that have happened stay the way they are… a tall guys wearing a Hawaiian shirt (6°C at 6am in Tijuana is not common) asked me if I recalled the Foundation.

I lied, I do recall it and what they do, I think it’s time for me to join them if possible if not to stop this to at least get more money to fix things if possible…….